The Fear.

Eeeek. Any chance of getting the mri done now? Thinking of you.

The MRI without contrast is around 700 dollars, the cost of the contrast is between 100 and 350 depending (on what, I have no idea) so, yes it will happen, I just need the money first, and that will take a month or 6 weeks to save up. With school starting (clothes and supplies) this month is out. Thus far I havent found anyone who will work with me on the payment thing and my nuerologist is pretty insistent that it really is important to stick with a good place so I have a list. I actualy havent been in to see him yet either (money) but he was kind enough to talk to me on the phone about all of this and order the MRI without an appointment we dont have insurance and are kinda tight financialy (wow, wierd, they just called me), he insists that it is also important I come in and see him asap, hence the call. Ya know, most drs, most times, I would assume this was about money, go here cause I get a kick back, come in cause I get a fee... etc. This time... I wish it was that way... I wish I could believe that is why everyone is so insistent, so persistent. I am scared out of my mind and even the drs arent acting optimistic... for once, I hate that.

Then in the back of my mind (so far, its stayed in the back, the idea of what might lay ahead, I dont want to face it unless I have to), I think, what if they do find soemthing... we dont have insurance, we dont have the money for that... what then?

ok, well, first of all it definately needs to be done, you know that already, right?
As far as the cost of the MRI, has the doctor said it needed to be at a specific facility? If he has, call them and ask for the office manager. You can usually arrrange for a payment plan, I did that with my first MRI for my tendonitus. But without that, you don't even know what exactly you are worrying about (and that's far, far worse than knowing, I know).

***HUG***

if your doctor hasn't specified a facilty, I know the MRI center in LEwisville, on 121, just West of 35 will work with you.

Yes we will do the MRI, I have an appointment with my dr on sept 23rd, the plan is to go that day to the appt and do the MRI. I am waiting for 2 reasons (the first the major one, the second pretty minor), the biggest being life insurance, as it stands at this moment (to an insurance company) I am a very healthy, young woman, which makes me highly insurable. The fact that I am a homemaker means I can get a 100k-200k term life or 100k universal life policy and raise no flags (if I worked I could double that), so our agent (who is a friend of my inlaws, I think they figured it out and talked to him) wihtout actualy saying he knows explained to me how to do this so I have 1-1.5 million in life insurance and no indepth look into my medical history, I cant lie, but a migrain is no big deal and I made sure my dr has not yet changed my diagnosis and withdrew the MRI order for now. I am putting together a group of seperate term and one universal life insurance policies right now, it will take 4-6 weeks to have the policy roll out, once its in force, so long as we make the payments whatever happens that day in the MRI room, they cant take it away. So no matter what happens, my family is taken care of, and if its nothing... well its a very small price to pay for that kind of peace of mind.

The second is money, by sept I will have the full thing, and yes he did give me a list of 3 facilities he wants me to choose between, I am going to the one I have gone to for the CAT and the regular MRI I had a while back.

Somehow, taking these steps to take care of my family, no matter what happens, settles my mind, my fears and helps me see it as a questionmark, not all the things that questionmark could be.

Just this afternoon, I was going through my college catalogue description of classes... There was one that was solely for the purpose of releasing pressure build-up and tension in the head. Immediately I thought "Oooooh, I'd love to try this on Amy." Doesn't help a whole lot, but the sentiment is always nice. =P

Sending you lotsa love and well-wishes.

At least it doesn't help RIGHT NOW....

heh, yes, the sentiment is nice, thanks. :)